~Guilty Conscience~

Well, as you could tell yesterday I was feeling a little down and out. By the end of the night I was talking to an old friend of mine about it and he was trying to encourage me. The next morning he shows up at my place to see how I was doing and then it happened. YES. “IT.” Do I have regrets? No. I was feeling pretty bad and I wanted to change my mood. And that worked. HAHAHA.

After it happened I started to feel as though I had made a mistake but I am tired of listening to everyone and their opinions about certain aspects of my life. I really take what certain friends and family say to heart, but I am starting to get in the mode to where I don’t care anymore. I have been let down so many times when I try to tell a friend or family member my opinion and they just ignore me but get mad when I don’t do what they say. So I am going to live my life for me. I will have to deal with the consequences when/if it happens.

Just now I am getting an opinion from my sister about the situation and she is going on and on about basically how irresponsible I am and blah blah blah. I am so sick of it. I really starting to get irritated by it. They make it seem like I’m some kind of hoe. And I am not. I’m not sleeping with every man I meet.  If that was the case I would have been pregnant or had a disease by now.

Can’t they just let me live?